Sad Day

We decided today to withdraw our lawsuit. We haven't heard from our lawyer since back in March at which point from what I understood, his expert approved our case and we were just waiting to proceed. We even got a letter from the lawyer after we "approved" to confirm proceeding with the suit. I just don't understand what happened between then and now.

Last month I tried to contact them to get an update. Last month as in August. It has been 2 weeks and I finally received some sort of contact. Now he is saying that his expert did not think there was negligence and they have been looking for another expert that could review our case. They recently found one but it would cost an additional $400 per hour for him to review it. So they would have to take that from our Trust. So we sort of had enough and withdrew our case. They clearly weren't up to the job because he just kept emphasizing how there won't be much 'monetary' gain. That part WE didn't care about but of course he did since he was on a contingency based pay. So I don't know...a part of me thinks that they just didn't want to put the work in, and a part of me wants to believe that maybe there wasn't any negligence after all?? I know he didn't take advantage of us because they are giving us back more than half of our initial retainer fee. I just think he lost his drive for the case after realizing that he's not going to get jack shit for it even if we had an expert agree with us.

I'm not sure what to think but in any case, we withdrew our suit. We still have the College to fall back on in terms of our formal complaint with them. If they come back with nothing then I can safely rest assured that this was just a freak accident because my pelvis was too small. Yes, that will be hard to accept because in a sense then "I" killed my baby without even knowing it. But it might be a bit easier to accept than option b) which is that some fool of a doctor took his life needlessly.

So we'll await the College's 12 month investigation results patiently. In the meantime, trying to stay sane and strong for our little girl just as she has stayed strong for us.