I guess I don't write much on these posts since I don't have too much good news on the home front. I don't want to always seem like a downer with my negative posts, but it is good to get things out sometimes. We're coming up on 9 months in a few days...my son would be a happy little 9 month old in a few days. It doesn't get much easier as each month passes. I'm hoping that once I hit the dreaded 1 year mark it will get easier and I won't be counting month to month anymore. As crazy and selfish as it sounds, I try to forget that the 2nd of the month comes up but I always end up remembering a few days before. Right now I would be posting pictures of my 9 month old, doing crazy things with our little furbabies and daddy. But instead, I'm going to post some old pictures...I guess I'm in a reminiscing mood today. I guess I miss having him with me all the time. Even when you're alone, you're not really alone :) I love that feeling...
25-28 Weeks
37+ Weeks - and what was my last week with our baby
We are still trying to conceive...going on our 9th cycle in 2 weeks or so. I had a Sonohysterogram this cycle and all was well, clear tubes and good uterus she said. Hoping that it might have flushed some things out, doctor said a lot of ladies are very fertile after this but I don't have high hopes for pregnancy. The hope IS there, don't get me wrong, but you sort of mask it because you don't want to get too down. I was so optimistic when we first started this journey, now I am neutral on the outside, but deep down it hurts like crazy to have failed month after month. I guess all I can do is keep my head above water and don't give up hope just yet. Looking at these pictures, yes it gets me reminiscing and a bit sad, but at the same time gives me hope..if i was able to carry full term once, I surely can do it again one day.
Marta you look gorgeous pregnant!! I don't remember ever seeing your belly pics on the forum. I don't think I posted mine there either. I have high hopes that you're going to get pregnant soon. Don't gie up hopes yet. Please! You carried a perfect baby to term once, of course you will do it again. Do keep your head up and keep moving forward. And keep blogging. Seriously. Don't worry about being a downer. You're not. You're honest. And when you have great news to blog about, it will be all the sweeter to read! :)
ReplyDeleteI think your amazing and I love reading your posts good, great, bad and ugly... You will have great news to share with all of us very soon and until then keep on writing what ever you are feeling!!!
ReplyDeleteOh my Marta I just cried for you I don;t know how hard it is too lose a little one or a eldler I can't imagen how you feel as each month passes and you think about your little angle ( I hope I spelled that right). I hope you get pregnant soon and get the happy heathly little one that you so greatly deserve. I keep you in my prays.
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