Well as the title says, I'm 10 days past our IUI...well 10 and 11 days technically as I had 2 back to back IUIs and 2 separate days of ovulation. And I am not feeling a thing..not that I'm surprised, I mean it would have been a miracle if we hit the jackpot on the first try. But I guess I still had a bit of hope that it would work. I do have a massive headache but I can safely attribute that to the strong winds we've had the last 2 days and me not having a hat :)
I tested again with a $1 test and it looks almost identical to the one at 8dpo. There's a faint line there but honestly you can't tell for sure with those cheapie tests because I've always found a faint line on those in the past and not once was I pregnant. I've been testing every few days to see when the HCG was finally out of my system. So I'll go get a couple of FRERs and use one at 12dpo and if that is negative then I think we can safely say it's not happening.
I guess we will just try again in January...I really don't think I'm up for it considering how much work I missed for just one cycle but I don't want to resort to IVF. Here's prayin' for a miracle in the meantime...
Saturday, December 12, 2009
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
Almost Died Today
It was the first storm of the winter and we were on our way back from the clinic this morning and going on the on ramp to the highway we skid sideways across four lanes. We ended up stopping in the shoulder of the fast lane by the concrete centreway and facing the oncoming traffic. I couldn't help but shake and cry hysterically because I felt like that was the day we would die. I am sure someone was watching over us today and helped us because we didn't even get scratched by another car skidding sideways for what seemed like an eternity on Canada's most dangerous highway.
But on a high note, I got my progesterone and estradiol levels today and the nurse said that my progesterone is very very good. I'm not sure what that means but I'll take it that I definitely released more than 1 egg, which we already knew. Oh how nice it would be to break it to everyone at Christmas that we're expecting. But of course that would be too perfect...the due date would also be my birthday lol..so it's not happening.
I'm having a strange pain in the right side of my uterus so it's either a cyst or implantation :) I'm going to go with implantation to live this dream for at least one more week. I know it's foolish to think that but who cares, a girl can dream! It is probably a cyst tho because that's the side I had a 2.7 follicle on.
Anyways, this week will be the longest 7 days of my life until my beta...siiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiigh :)
But on a high note, I got my progesterone and estradiol levels today and the nurse said that my progesterone is very very good. I'm not sure what that means but I'll take it that I definitely released more than 1 egg, which we already knew. Oh how nice it would be to break it to everyone at Christmas that we're expecting. But of course that would be too perfect...the due date would also be my birthday lol..so it's not happening.
I'm having a strange pain in the right side of my uterus so it's either a cyst or implantation :) I'm going to go with implantation to live this dream for at least one more week. I know it's foolish to think that but who cares, a girl can dream! It is probably a cyst tho because that's the side I had a 2.7 follicle on.
Anyways, this week will be the longest 7 days of my life until my beta...siiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiigh :)
Thursday, December 3, 2009
Our First IUI!!
And hopefully last! :)
We had 2 back to back IUIs on Tuesday and Wednesday. It was 10 days of Gonal-F injections leading up to it, I was so nervous for it. But I think it went well, our numbers were great, above the minimum so that's a positive. I ovulated 1 egg on Tuesday and still had 3-4 more on Wednesday so they gave me another trigger shot. I had so much pain on Wednesday, I hope it was just ovulation pain and nothing serious like the sperm not being washed properly. I had to take the day off work and honestly it brought back so many memories of my c-section last year. The pain was identical, not fun.
Anyways so now we sit back and let nature do it's thing. I can't help but be pessimistic. All I do is read about other couples whom IUI did not work for, and who had much better odds than us. So why would it work for us, I ask myself? Because we're good people, because we follow rules, because we deserve a break? That's exactly why I feel like it WON'T work for us. So of course, I'm not getting my hopes up. I'm trying to stay cautiously optimistic.
So now the longest two weeks of our lives. If this doesn't work, we will try it again in January and then see where we can go from there.
Any prayers or wishes greatly appreciated at this time :)
We had 2 back to back IUIs on Tuesday and Wednesday. It was 10 days of Gonal-F injections leading up to it, I was so nervous for it. But I think it went well, our numbers were great, above the minimum so that's a positive. I ovulated 1 egg on Tuesday and still had 3-4 more on Wednesday so they gave me another trigger shot. I had so much pain on Wednesday, I hope it was just ovulation pain and nothing serious like the sperm not being washed properly. I had to take the day off work and honestly it brought back so many memories of my c-section last year. The pain was identical, not fun.
Anyways so now we sit back and let nature do it's thing. I can't help but be pessimistic. All I do is read about other couples whom IUI did not work for, and who had much better odds than us. So why would it work for us, I ask myself? Because we're good people, because we follow rules, because we deserve a break? That's exactly why I feel like it WON'T work for us. So of course, I'm not getting my hopes up. I'm trying to stay cautiously optimistic.
So now the longest two weeks of our lives. If this doesn't work, we will try it again in January and then see where we can go from there.
Any prayers or wishes greatly appreciated at this time :)
Sunday, November 29, 2009
1st IUI Cycle
Well we did it! We committed to having an IUI cycle. Basically we went in for a trial wash and the numbers came out lower than the FS would like to see but we decided to take our chances anyways. Not only that but we went straight for the big guns; injectables! It's been tough to say the least, with my work hours being so crazy. I had to tell my boss what we were up to because I was coming in late every other day.
I've responded really well to the meds at a low dose so that's good. I'm on CD10 right now with 4 good follies so hopefully they'll all release an egg. I think we're scheduled for the IUI in about 2-3 days, it's double so 2 days in a row. Then the longest 2WW of our lives.
If this cycle doesn't work then we'll do 1 more in early 2010. If that doesn't work then IVF in April when I'm done my contract. I can't imagine how much work I'd miss with IVF if I miss this much with just IUI.
My ovaries feel like they're going to burst. And hubby and I have reached a whole new level of intimacy yet again. He's injecting me in the belly every day :)
Please pray this will work for us...if not we will be sad but keep truckin' since that is our only option.
I've responded really well to the meds at a low dose so that's good. I'm on CD10 right now with 4 good follies so hopefully they'll all release an egg. I think we're scheduled for the IUI in about 2-3 days, it's double so 2 days in a row. Then the longest 2WW of our lives.
If this cycle doesn't work then we'll do 1 more in early 2010. If that doesn't work then IVF in April when I'm done my contract. I can't imagine how much work I'd miss with IVF if I miss this much with just IUI.
My ovaries feel like they're going to burst. And hubby and I have reached a whole new level of intimacy yet again. He's injecting me in the belly every day :)
Please pray this will work for us...if not we will be sad but keep truckin' since that is our only option.
Sunday, November 15, 2009
IUI or IVF?
Well I haven't posted in a while, I just have been so busy at work. 11 hour days, and in the next 19 days I only get one day off, which is today. I am completely behind in my course that I took on in September, right before I knew I had a new job. I'm not sure if I'll be able to finish it by February.
I'm afraid I'm not bearing good news. I'm not sure if we will be able to do IUI at this point, I just don't think it will be feasible. At first the FS booked us in, we had our orientation, very excited to go ahead with IUI. I am supposed to go in on my CD 3 to start all of this, which will be in about 8 days. But I think it will be a waste of money. I mean with it our chances right now are very slim. So I am rethinking the whole thing. We will take time off until January and then re-evaluate. In the meantime, try to get a loan somewhere for another $10,000 in case we have to go ahead, so we are prepared. It's been hard trying to accept that IVF might be our only option. I am having a major shock to my body right now trying to figure out how to get a loan for another 10 grand (we just BARELY got one for $8,000 for our son's lawyer). And when I say barely, I mean barely because my school debt is so high. It is more than half of my income.
So I left a message for our FS to call us and see if she even thinks IUI would be a waste of money or not. I don't want to go ahead and just throw money out. If it was like $300 per cycle then I would do it for a few cycles. But it's $375 for the 1st IUI, then $225 for the 2nd (they like to do 2), then $80 for clomid, and $86 for the the trigger shot and then I don't know how much for the progesterone. So we are looking at $800 per IUI cycle. I would love to switch clinics to get a cheaper rate somewhere up north or out west but honestly I just cant' with my work hours. I can't justify driving 1.5 hours each way to a cheaper clinic and having to take the day off work for it (unpaid because I'm on contract). So we'll see when she calls next week. If she says IVF then we'll wait until the new year and start with that then IF we can find someone to cosign for a loan for us.
I am feeling deflated about the whole thing, to say the least....I just want to hear the voices of our children in this house, lighting it up with their laughter and smiles. Why is that so hard to have? Why does it feel like we are being punished? :(
I'm afraid I'm not bearing good news. I'm not sure if we will be able to do IUI at this point, I just don't think it will be feasible. At first the FS booked us in, we had our orientation, very excited to go ahead with IUI. I am supposed to go in on my CD 3 to start all of this, which will be in about 8 days. But I think it will be a waste of money. I mean with it our chances right now are very slim. So I am rethinking the whole thing. We will take time off until January and then re-evaluate. In the meantime, try to get a loan somewhere for another $10,000 in case we have to go ahead, so we are prepared. It's been hard trying to accept that IVF might be our only option. I am having a major shock to my body right now trying to figure out how to get a loan for another 10 grand (we just BARELY got one for $8,000 for our son's lawyer). And when I say barely, I mean barely because my school debt is so high. It is more than half of my income.
So I left a message for our FS to call us and see if she even thinks IUI would be a waste of money or not. I don't want to go ahead and just throw money out. If it was like $300 per cycle then I would do it for a few cycles. But it's $375 for the 1st IUI, then $225 for the 2nd (they like to do 2), then $80 for clomid, and $86 for the the trigger shot and then I don't know how much for the progesterone. So we are looking at $800 per IUI cycle. I would love to switch clinics to get a cheaper rate somewhere up north or out west but honestly I just cant' with my work hours. I can't justify driving 1.5 hours each way to a cheaper clinic and having to take the day off work for it (unpaid because I'm on contract). So we'll see when she calls next week. If she says IVF then we'll wait until the new year and start with that then IF we can find someone to cosign for a loan for us.
I am feeling deflated about the whole thing, to say the least....I just want to hear the voices of our children in this house, lighting it up with their laughter and smiles. Why is that so hard to have? Why does it feel like we are being punished? :(
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