Anna's Ex-Birthdate

I can't believe how long it's been since I've posted. I run another blog only for Anna so that our families around the world can read about her. So as of last week or so I was pretty much doing it every day. Every day while she was in the NICU at least. So although I have a million things running through my head that I have to vent about, I've sort of let them all just pile up because I was busy with her and her blog and now it's a lost cause.

I still can't believe that she's home and that she's with us. I know a lot of people will hate me for saying this but she is such a good baby. I had so many people tell me about the horrible things that come with motherhood that I was truly scared and at one point wondering if I'll even enjoy having a newborn at home. I was so angry every time someone would say "enjoy your sleep now because..." -- who cares, I love getting up with her!!! I am sleep deprived yes, but it's nothing compared to the joy of seeing her little face!! Well I think even if she was screaming her lungs out I would still enjoy her as much as I do now. Not a day goes by that I'm not grateful for what we have and what she's taught us.

I also think a lot about Liam lately. She resembles him a lot, but she is also different in so many ways. She turned 38 weeks and 3 days yesterday. The day she was supposed to be born via scheduled c-section. Liam was born at 38 weeks and 3 days and he was 7lbs 5oz. She is just a mere 6 lbs 10 ounces but I'm sure she would have been bigger had she experienced the entire third trimester with me.

We have cast mouldings of Liam's hands and feet and I took them out the other day and I just can't believe what a big boy he was! At the time I thought he was so tiny, little did I know of what was to come in our future.

Anyways, it's been bitter sweet to say the least. I am so happy to have Anna here with us, but of course the sadness and grief will never go away for my first born.