Well I woke up today and walking towards the bathroom I thought "hmm I don't feel pregnant". I did my deed and found a small bit of red blood, like a string. Boy did I have a heartattack!! I decided not to say anything to A in hope that it was just a fluke, maybe I inserted my progesterone a bit too rough, who knows. But then 15 mins later I checked again and another red string. So I told him.
The cramping started shortly thereafter, but the good news is that no spotting since. My bbs are nowhere near as sore as they were yesterday so I have pretty much given up. I just can't believe that we saw a healthy heartbeat 4 days ago and now there's a possibility, a high one, that we might lose this baby. I was just thinking nice thoughts yesterday about how life will be with our baby and how we SO deserve this after the hell we've been through the last 2 years. And now this...
We will be going to the clinic tomorrow morning during cycle monitoring hours. There's wont' be a doctor there but the nurse and lab techs will there so maybe they can squeeze me in for an ultrasound. I won't be fully convinced even if they do find a heartbeat still but at least I'll know whether we are still in the game even if it's for one more day.
Ironic thing, we just ordered a doppler yesterday to ease our minds :( won't be here til Thursday.
So here's praying that everything is fine...but I highly doubt it. I just have a bad feeling and I hope I'm SO WRONG.
My prayers are with you and I am wishing for a positive outcome for you and your hubby. Be strong!
ReplyDeleteNope. it's too early to have negative thoughts. I had bleeding and cramping when I was 6 weeks along. I even spent a miserable day waiting in a dirty ER because I was so worried. Lie around and do nothing but watch Canada win hockey today and don't panic or send little bean any sad vibes!! I really believe that this is happening for you. I'll be checking back to see what happens. Happy, sticky vibes from me to you.
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