If you asked me 5 years ago (when I was 24) about kids, I'd say "pffft...not for me thanks". Even though deep down my biological clock has been ticking since I hit my 20's, I just never saw myself as a mom. I didn't have the best mom growing up, and I wasn't so confident that I would be one as well. I didn't know how to be. We weren't shown much love growing up and now as adults while she could probably make up for lost time, my mother still doesn't bother.
But somewhere along pregnancy I realized, you know what; I WILL be a good mom. I'll show my son what a normal, loving family is supposed to feel like. Finally I will have my family, where every child matters equally, mommy will take care of boo-boos and daddy will always have time and all will feel love even in the worst of times. If we are ever put down or deflated by the outside world, we could always come home to the love and warmth of our family.
Well we can all dream can't we?
Hopefully my dream comes true soon enough.
My husband feels the same way, His dad sucked and he figures now that as long as he does the opposite of his dad, he'll be fine!
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